Memory .

it is crazy how our memories work . how we can memorize a person . their mannerisms , speech patterns , eyes , mouth . &nd even when they aren't near us we can hear something and know the exact way they would laugh . i've been missing a lot of my friends who don't live near me . speaking of memory . . . i'm not sure if everyone does this but almost always when i am lying in bed trying to fall asleep ill remember something that happened . sometimes something from that day , and sometimes it could be months or years ago that it happened . but its so vivid like a little movie in my mind , so relentless . i notice everything , i pay attention to everything , and i remember most of it . it can be kind of a curse . its easy to remember the good things about someone who you've grown apart from . i sometimes have to force myself to remember why and how things got to how they are now , how hurt i felt and how my trust was so offended . but i can't help but forgive , and to know that the people i surround myself with are good people with good intentions and people sometimes mess up . i guess its just a shame to drift from someone who you used to be so close to . and to know that they are still angry or apathetic when you hold nothing against them and hope they are well . that's life i guess . i still believe everything happens for a reason .